wish i were a guy so i could say this to a girl, though of course if i were that way inclined i could do just that! i suppose! i really like this, i guess it's not among the best love poems out there but its honesty, sincerity, how human it is - i just like it very much.

( apology )

I love Harry Shum Jr! :D New celeb crush yay. THE VIDEO IS VERY VERY FUNNY.

by Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example,'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her voice. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

Have you reckon’d a thousand acres much? have you reckon’d the earth much?
Have you practis’d so long to learn to read?
Have you felt so proud to get at the meaning of poems?

Stop this day and night with me, and you shall possess the origin of all poems;
You shall possess the good of the earth and sun—(there are millions of suns left;)
You shall no longer take things at second or third hand, nor look through the eyes of the dead, nor feed on the spectres in books;
You shall not look through my eyes either, nor take things from me:
You shall listen to all sides, and filter them from yourself.

Do I contradict myself?
Very well, then, I contradict myself,
(I am large, I contain multitudes).

The spotted hawk swoops by and accuses me—he complains of my gab and my loitering.

I too am not a bit tamed—I too am untranslatable;
I sound my barbaric yawp over the roofs of the world.

Failing to fetch me at first, keep encouraged;
Missing me one place, search another;
I stop somewhere, waiting for you.

Come away, O human child!
To the waters and the wild
With a faery, hand in hand,
For the world's more full of weeping than you can understand.

The Stolen Child, by W.B. Yeats

Training today. Haha I don't know what to say so i won't say anything. But I'm really scared I got a splinter under my fingernail!! Oh gosh. Hope not though aghh ): BUT IT HURTS and I'm being a big baby but honestly man, my grandma met this woman who had a prawn thingy stuck up her nail, and it eventually travelled up her bloodstream OMG???

Anyway the holidays are almost over! Part of me can't wait to get back to school because there are many things to look forward to, and I've already gotten all my stationary and notebooks packed in my bag and ready to go heh! But the sheer thought of all that work to be done for my studies + all the other commitments makes me want to escape to prehistoric times or something.

4000 more EXP points till I level up in Farmville! I have an obsession with levelling up and beating other people I think. Or in this case, myself.

I'm sort of playing Hogwarts EXtreme! (HEX!) And you fill out a Sorting Application with like personal info and guess what, I'm a Hufflepuff. Okay, so I did get this twinge of disappointment cos I thought I was not-lame enough to be at least a Ravenclaw but OH WELL I guess the books were kinda biased xD

Okay so below is a rant. Which is long and inspired? provoked? by the FB group about shutting up because Korean stars will never date fangirls, which somehow mutated into this long OMG STUPID FANGIRLS HAHA LOSERS LOSERS bitching session.

( pulled apart my theory with a weary and disinterested sigh )

Speaking of fangirling, I recently discovered the ideal boyfriend! Maybe not discovered, more like rediscovered. HAHAHA. But it's stupid to say here, so I WON'T. But if you ask I probably will tell you. Yay.

"Huh not Yunho?" Wenxian

NOPE!

BYE.

Merry Christmas and Boxing Day! Harry Potter meme beneath the cut!

upsdell AND I WERE SPAZZING OVER DEATHLY HALLOWS!! :D :D Okay fine we were being dreadfully shallow and spazzing over the actors playing YOUNG DUMBLEDORE AND GRINDELWALD but well, STILL POTTERIFFIC RIGHT!!! ^^

( PHOTOS UNDER THE CUT )

CANNOT WAIT AHHH THANK GOD IT'S COMING OUT IN TWO MOVIES!

I'm totally going to have a Harry Potter Marathon over Christmas and REREAD ALL THE BOOKS by the time Deathly Hallows Pt 1 comes out SQUEE~~

read coraline, wow it's really great!! neil gaiman is a master i'm so happy i got to SHAKE HANDS WITH HIM AND HUG HIM OMG -fangirls-

today i watched my first movie on impulse. it was new moon. yes, well.. hahaha it was well, as expected, but frankly i don't understand why all the characters seem so BORED! if i were bella and i had such a wonderful boyfriend i would be grinning all over whenever i saw him. it really confuses me, because bella does NOT SMILE AT ALL. if she were cheerful and injected some zest into her dialogue everything would be nicer.

also, i wish rpattz would just dispense with his american mumbly mumbly accent and just speak with his british accent!! ): right now he is barely whispering and WHERE IS THE MANLINESS. he sounds perpetually in pain.

another thing: there is one really cool volturi vampire and his name is jamie campbell bower and will be in harry potter!! as grindelwald! omg GRINDELWALD yay.

wenxian's slip of the tongue: (looking at a random picture) is that.. ella and badword.

actually it's quite a big thing for me to watch a movie unplanned. normally i look at all the movie schedules and all. i remember the first time i watched a movie without my family, it was with janne and rachel and we watched devil wears prada. someone cut out the day's movie schedule hahaha.

pretty dakota fanning!